Why am I still awake?

Well let's see. For starters, I can't for the love of god find my wallet. Other thoughts swimming in my head include:
The pending NGO work that just doesn't seem to get over.
What would it feel like to have my own house.
I can feel my insides decaying I should probably stop smoking.
How funny is life, humans and their ways.
Why do we never appreciate what we have?
Why do we always yearn for more?
I also have to finish editing about four videos. So that's quite a task.
A work client who hasn't gotten back to me with a gig yet.
How everyone in this town wants to get work done for free.
Is this the life I really want?
Will my life ever get better?
When will I die? Under what circumstances?
This smart kid.
You. How ungrateful you are.
And many more such things.
Gotta end the list cuz now I just wanna smoke, kill myself a little.