Is it just me or does everyone feel more and more like a purposeless leaf drifting to nowhere particular as you get older? I’m 22, studied in one of the best schools in India and one of the top five college in the country; what next? Find a “well-paying job” and before you know it, life is over. If life is indeed going to be this bland, or this difficult, or this frustrating and if life is really going to be this hard to please, isn’t it better to just say goodbye to this world? What’s here to stay for anyway? There’s war, people are dying every day of unimaginable hunger, young girls get trafficked…I mean isn’t it all this just depressing? Add to this personal failures, the constant need to please people. Then is it not better to end your life right now than to go through another 40 to 50 years of misery?
I’m not advocating suicide; I’m just trying to look at things as they really are. Somehow the reasons to die seem to outnumber the things to live for. Why do you think god gave us free will? Just think about it, out of the million odd species he made humans are the only one who have this privilege. God gave us free will so that if ever there should be a time when it gets unbearable, you can end your life.
Recently this feeling has been so strong that I sometimes wish I would just die in my sleep. It’s not a very pleasant feeling. So I have come up with a list of things to do to in this lifetime to stop me from actually doing the act.
ure old now! change ure age!! :P
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